Guidance Councilors

Well today I went down to my guidance councilor to see if I could fit Music into my timetable for next year. As I’m taking Physics online this summer, I thought I’d see if by taking that out I’d be able to fit in Music. Turns out there was a conflict and they put in accounting instead of my physics. My mom was set on me taking accounting but I thought, it’s not a course that I’m going to need to get into University, and it’s another work heavy course in a work heavy year. I wanted to take grade 12 music, one that I can use a good mark to bump up my average, and besides, I’m just finishing grade 11 now, why wouldn’t I take grade 12. Unfortunately it was at the same time as my earth and space science, which I couldn’t drop as that was a course that I also really wanted to take, and one that I would probably have some use for in the future as I’m going into science in university.

I knew that one of my friends was coming back and taking grade 10 music, to learn another instrument, as she had finished grade 12 music and wanted to have music in her last year at school. (She’s graduating this year, she’s just coming back to take some extra courses and because she’s not sure what she wants to do.) So I asked the guidance councilor to look when that was exactly. It turns out it was the same time as my accounting. So I’d like to drop that and pick up the grade 10 music, and learn another instrument. I’m not sure what instrument I’m going to choose, Trombone would be fun, despite the fact that I absolutely <3 my flute.

I’m just going to have to talk my mom into letting me drop my accounting and possible take it the year after, and let me have music next year. If I don’t have my music I’m not going to make it through the year, as that is what has been saving me this semester.

A better day

Well it’s already working better then some of my old diaries…many of those never got past one entry. Today is a better day then yesterday…although Mom can be nothing but disappointed in me, I had one of my friends tell me how “freaking amazing” I was. That along with the big hug she gave me made me feel better then I had felt in a little while. (There’s a long story behind this, which I’ll probably end up telling one of these days.)

I’m not quite as far I had hoped to be on this ISP, but hey, it’s not due till Tuesday so I’m pretty sure I’ll be able to get it done. It was such nice weather today, that before I wanted to be lock myself behind the computer I decided to spend some time studying outside, so I was laying on the (broken) trampoline when my mom walks by, on her way in, and sees what I’m making review notes for (music) and she’s like, your ISP is much more important then that, you’re going to PASS that. Although she makes a good point, I still want to have a good mark in my music class because it’s one of the few things that I can do but none of my friends can. The rest of them have either just taken Grade 9 music, or no music at all, so I’m quite a bit further then them.

Uh, oh I hear that my mom’s getting mad at my brothers in the kitchen… I better get back to work before she comes in and sees how little progress I’ve made.

Hello

Well I need something new in my life, especially seeing as the school year is almost over, and that my life seems to be falling apart lately, I’ll see if this is the ticket. I’ve tried to do dairies before but that hasn’t worked so I’ll see if this will work any better. I’ve been so stressed and frustrated lately, and I've heard time and time again that writing you feelings down helps you be in control of them, well I hope this will be the ticket, and if it’s not, well it’s just another failed idea.

This might just end up being another way to procrastinate, or get sidetracked from what I’m supposed to be doing, as by setting this up I've already managed to do that. I’m supposed to be working on one of my ISP’s (Individual Study Projects that are worth anywhere from 5 to 30% of your final grade.) This one’s due on Tuesday, and is worth the full 30% as there is no exam for this course, and I need to do this, and well otherwise I'll fail the course and be grounded for the whole summer. It’s not that I'm a bad student, if I really wanted to I could completely fail this course, and put time into the other 3 and get 90’s in them, now my mom will have to be satisfied with hid to high 80’s instead.

That was my original plan, once it hit me that I was probably going to fail this course if I didn’t really get to work REALLY hard on it, (I hadn’t done any work on it since before midterms) I thought I’ll just drop it and work hard and get 90’s in my other 3 courses, that should pacify my mother. But when I told her that idea, it wasn’t good enough, so now I'm slaving on this computer until Tuesday, juicing as high of a mark out of this course as i can, one that is above a 50. And if i end up getting anything less then a 50 in the course, aka a fail, I’m grounded for the whole summer, on top of my house arrest this weekend, and no parties for a month.

This actually feels quite liberating, in a good way, I don’t think I’ve been this relaxed in a while. But anyway I better get back to my homework, but the need to do something else will come knocking again before Tuesday.